ACCIDENTALLY IN LOVE

- Dimana mana sih kalo fall in love pasti accidentally. Susah kali ah jatuh cinta di plan.A week. 18 hours on the line. Feels so unreal. Ups and Downs. Just aftraid. So overwhelming and frightening -

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it
[ Accidentally in Love, Counting Crows ]

"I am afraid"
"Why?"
"I may found it perfect but could not have it"
"If you're too concern about the results that what you'll get"

Yes. It is about the process and not the result. But this time, my concern is about the result. yes, of course getting it done through the right process. But I am still afraid. Memang kelihatannya cukup bodoh, untuk seseorang yang selalu mentertawakan ide ketakutan tentang hal ini. Tapi mungkin karena saya durhaka, jadi saya mengalami ini.

What do you get when you fall in love?
You get enough tears to fill an ocean
That's what you get for your devotion.
I'll never fall in love again.
[I'll Never Fall in Love again, Burt Bacharach / Hal David ]

It's just going to fast and in some ways uncontrolled. I don't want it. This time, I don't wish ups and downs but fun. Kinda fun that makes me smile through out the day and sleep well at night.

Nyata.
Disentuh.
Didekap.
Diraba.

Maya.
Membentuk.
Menggambar.
Melukis.

Buat saya, kamu nyata, saya bentuk dan lukis dari bayangan maya Menjadi sebuah bentuk sempurna yang selalu menemani saya
Saya juga bisa jadi nyata Kalau hati kamu membiarkannya.

An amazing week. MSN Greet. Undelivered sms. Delayed sms. 4,5 hour phone calls. Potential. Distance. Being Honest. Sad Stories. Past Stories. Dreams of happiness. Mistakes. Fright. Roller Coaster. Cooling Down. Brakes. Anti-Brakes. Be Still My heart, please?

"Glad to hear that. It will slow some things down a bit, rite? I am just afraid this things is unsteerable. Skids left and right before bump and crash. Hopefully, it's not."

I think I need to pray harder than ever. Help me, God. Please.

Heart of mine.
Heart of mine go back home,
You got no reason to wander,
you got no reason to roam.
Don't let her see
Don't let her see that you need her.
Don't put yourself over the line
Heart of mine.
Heart of mine go back where you been,
It'll only be trouble for you if you let her in.
Don't let her hear Don't let her hear you want her.
Don't let her know she's so fine Heart of mine
[ Heart of Mine, Peter Malick feat. Norah Jones ]